"It was lust" 3 simple word that came out from her mouth that shattered my heart into pieces.
It wasn't easy, for 6 months I have been hoping to bring back what we started. I conquered the islands just to be next to her, but It was no use... It only drag both of us to an end. I though I could take the pain, but I was wrong! It's really inside me, and its breaking me apart... Work and Family is my only outlet and I'm doing it all wrong again.. For I just keep on shutting off people in my life, the way she shut me offs.
Worse come to worse. She said I was pushing it too hard that everytime she receives a txt message from me, it makes her feel more angrier with me! I cried when she said that.. But I never showed her any single pain, I burst out with anger and just answered back like a baby who thinks she's in the right track. Actually, I never cared it was lust. I only care that she lied to me... I deserve better than that, don't I? Somehow, I can't blame her.. Our age gap is also a factor that even to the smallest thing, we argue like kids! My pride is high and so is hers...
I just wish, we never started anything to keep the friendship we had. Well, we were never good friends but ever since she came into my life... I saw the best and worse in me.
